I tried to take Vectoring to a more complex level, using the whole rotoscoping technique, i got the hang of playing around with manual painting / outlining and applying brush effects manually.. it's fun ^_^ and rather than messing around with my protrait like i usually do (how vain), i did a portrait of Nikki and Lilly Abigail ^_^


Since i'm only using a mouse, it gets pretty hard to be accurate, plus the fact that i did this in about 30 mins... anyway i tried to make it look as close as the original pic :P


...and of course Lilly Abigail, now you finally get to see what she looks like ^_^

another one of my less-than-two-minute songs, this is a combination of 2 poems written for 2 different people, one of them having a very disturbing background story -- reason why i matched it with such disturbing music.

this is the first song i came up with after the death of the Bohemian ioHann, surprisingly his ghost is haunting me a bit.

PERSONA
by ioHann

do that smile again
coz everytime you flash it
the more i realize
how shallow i am
to fall for something
like that
for something (someone) like you
but damn
it still works
---
and i hate it
i so fucking hate it
in your every serene expression
of thought and endearment
i find myself longing for your persona
but wishing the person
was anybody else
but you

The Little Squama

By ioHann

 

There once was a little squama who got bored in the woods, so he decided to live in the city.  He walked for days until he reached that place of which only few animals have ever returned from. There he experienced new things and wonders that were never in the woods.

From the small hole of a fruit store where he stayed, a man dropped a small gadget that fell right by the squama's hole. The gadget had a small light that shone when you pressed it.  Discovering this, the squama was in awe and amazement.

He remembered his little sister in the woods.  She always got scared at night when the owls hoot, she was always scared of the dark.

Then he realized why he had gone to the city. He had a purpose. it was to find that little gadget that will end his sister's scary nights.  He nedded to bring home that special shining light that will make his little sister happy and sleep soundly.

The next day he decided to go back to the woods and share what he had seen and done in the new world where he had gone to. But most importantly, he had to bring back the special gift for his beloved sister.  He carried the little gadget all the way to the woods. It was heavy, and very difficult to carry, but all he could think of was his little sister.

"I’m doing this for her and nothing can stop me," said the Squama.

He traveled without stop for thee days until he did not have an ounce of strength left. He felt very tired and fell asleep.

When the little squama woke up, he found himself deep in the woods. My, was he surprised when he realized his gadget was gone! He searched and searched for a whole day, but it only grew darker and scarier deep in the woods.  Giving up hope, the little squama sadly decided to go home to his sister.

When he got to his old tree hole, he yelled "I’m home".  Nothing but silence echoed his cry.

"Where is my sister?" he wondered to himself.

"If you’re looking for your little sister, I’m afraid I must cry," an old weathered owl hooted deeply from above.

"And why will you cry, old owl, I might ask?" said the little squama with as his eyebrows met.

"The day you left your sister alone, the boa came along the second you were gone.  He crushed your sister until she couldn’t move and swallowed her every inch until she was no more," the old owl said as she burst in tears.

The little squama fell to the ground hearing the old owl’s story. And then he cried, and cried, until he fell asleep.

“Wake up, squama! Quickly, we must see!” cried the newt as he woke the little squama.

“What is going on? I am too sad to see” whispered the little squama still drying his tears.

“All the animals are gathered in the cove to see what Mighty Lion had taken from the sky!”

The Little Squama could tell that all the animals were rushing from left and right towards the place where Mighty Lion stood. He followed the newt along with the crowd of animals.

When the newt and the little squama arrived at the gathering, the afternoon sun had already set. They were all the way at the back because there were so many animals.

“We humbly request, Mighty Lion, that you show us this treasure from the sky!” said a monkey swinging on a tree.

“Behold, all creatures of this land, I have taken a star from the sky!” roared Mighty Lion for all the animals to hear. And with a firm press of his paw on the rock, a small but bright light shone from beneath.

“Amazing!” cried the animals in awe.

“Truly you are most powerful, Mighty Lion, to have plucked a star from the great big sky!” said the monkey with a respectful bow.

Instantly, the little squama knew what they were seeing. The prized treasure under Mighty Lion’s paw was indeed the little gadget of light that the little squama had lost -- the little gadget of light that he carried with all his might on his back for three days, the little gadget of light he had taken care of just for his little sister.

“That’s not a star!” cried the little squama all the way from the back.

All the animals quickly turned to him in shock.

“And who might you be, little pest, to deny me, the Mighty Lion!” roared Mighty Lion angrily.

“I have traveled into the city where I found that which you hold in your paw. I have brought it back for my sister, but it disappeared when I fell asleep in the woods.” Said the little squama in a small voice.

“What is a city?” asked the newt.

“I don’t know,” said the monkey.

“Liar!” screamed Mighty Lion, “you dare steal my glory for yourself?”

“You are too small to even carry a magnificent star!” yelled the monkey.

“Liar! Liar!” chanted the mob of animals.

“I am telling the truth! I have brought that star here in the woods so my little sister will not cry anymore at night when she is scared of the dark.” Pleaded the little squama.

“So now you say it is a star, you little imbecile! You do not even have a brain!” Roared the angry lion.

“Where is this sister you say? We do not see your sister!” said the monkey which brought the mob of animals in laughter.

“But…” the little squama choked when he remembered the sad fate of his little sister.

“He’s guilty! Look at his face! He is nothing but a liar who wants to steal the glory of our Mighty Lion!” announced the monkey while he swung on the vines toward the little squama.

“Kill him! Kill him!” roared the crowd, when Mighty Lion suddenly gave out a mighty roar and silenced them.

“You are lower than dust to even think of denying me! Leave this place and never return, you are nothing but a pest in my kingdom!” said the lion as all the animals yelled curses and insults.

The little squama froze in fear and could not breathe as he watched the threatening eyes of every single animal.

THUD! A big rock hit his cheek, and quickly brought him back to his senses as warm blood flowed out. He turned away and ran with all his might to the deepest and darkest part of the woods, hoping that he would disappear.

The little squama could not cry out in fear, but big painful rolls of tears flowed down his eyes, mixed with the blood on his cheek and down to the black soil of the murkiest part of the forest. He did not stop running, until suddenly…

The little squama felt he was swiftly lifted up the air by something, although he could barely see in the dark, then quickly smashed into the ground. Then he felt his whole world pressing against him. He could not breathe. He tried to scream, or cry, but instead a strong gasp of air was pushed out of him. His bones were starting to crack, and he was feeling warm and very cold at the same time. The pain and agony was too much to describe or even think of. Then the excruciating unbearable pain started to turn into numbness as he felt sliding in a warm and sticky tunnel. And then it was quiet.

Somehow, the little squama’s love for his little sister had formed a bond between them. It was a powerful bond that enabled him to sense or know when the presence of his beloved sister is close. Now wonder that by the time the little squama had returned to the woods, his special sense for his sister was never present…

            But at that very moment, with the little consciousness left of the little squama in an unknown tight and sticky place, something brushed on his broken body. And right there, he knew… he was with his little sister.

i just the got COREL X4 set, after believing that they went bankrupt or something coz it took years for it to follow X3. when the whole world uses Adobe, i grew up with Corel so i'm still loyal ^_^ its been awhile since i messed with yet another portrait of mine, and it doesnt quite look like me anymore >_< sorry. i first made a low-bit Vector with 3 colors and then messed with the brush effects (--smudge tool), more brush tools and alot of manual work, including the pencil outlining to get the more "brush colored" look rather than cartoony.

Jai wanted her own version of the song she wrote, so i spent 2 nights in Xanland, Katipunan and made her version ^_^

I slowed it down abit, took out the distortions but tried to maintain the heaviness using piano and strings sections. about 3 layers of piano and 2 layers of strings, 3 layers of acoustic guitars, drums and bass. i also adjusted the pitch range to fit Jai's voice.

Special thanks to Jeff Cabral for backup vocals, and to Mayee for lending us Maggie for recording.

Enjoy!

Two Worlds Away (Jai Version)
Lyrics and Vocals by Jael Garcia
music by ioHann
backup vocals by Jeff Cabral and ioHann
 
The sun is gone today
I’m sure it’s etched on your face for all to see
So full of pain, so full of hurt
From me
Its driving insane
By the thought of you sitting there
Clawing at your hair, wide-eyed and so full of despair

And I’m sorry
I know you don’t wanna hear it again
But I’m sorry
And there’s no way that time could bend

(chorus)
Not that I want to fly away
But I just can’t stay
Coz my heart had come back to me
Now you’re left with no words to say
We’re two worlds away
And to you I have nothing more
So I’ll walk out the door
With goodbye

Funny how things always end
The last way you expected them to
But believe me I tried constantly
i wish you were always everything to me
And I’m so full of love that I can’t give
Or I just don’t know how, with you

Coz I can’t love you
The way you love me
And I can’t be yours
And we just cant be

(chorus)

(bridge)
And from the bottom of my heart I know it’s true
But nothing could stop me
From falling away from you
But I had to do what I had to do
‘Cause I wanted you to know what’s true
And I am falling into this
dragged into a deep abyss
And now I’m all alone
no other heart to call my own
coz I’m in a place right now
Where I’m free from you
I never wanted you to hurt
Never wanted you to wound
But your world would have never changed
Unless I crashed it into the sea
Two worlds we want will never ever meet
Sea and sky
I’ve walked out the door for you
With goodbye

The original version is heavier and with a more alternative rock arrangement, click this link to listen to it ^_^

a few minutes ago a package arrived at my door.  It was a package from Japan, addressed to my name ^_^ the first ever package ive ever recieved from Japan.  it was from a good friend of mine, Lady Chand. 

she's been asking me what i wanted for a birthday gift for the longest time, i just said "Pocky!!!" and a Sakura Flower since it was spring in Japan.

the package contained:

- 2 boxes of Pocky
- 4 assorted Guitar picks
- a musical birthday card including a letter written in   Japanese
- a personal letter
- a (really cool!) Casio watch
- and best of all.. a laminated Sakura flower with an autumn leaf.



<-- the laminated Sakura and leaf ^_^


the watch was perfect since its exactly what i needed for a long time now. ----------------------->

"so i wont forget to eat..." like Lady says ^_^


this was so cool, and she really got to time it to arrive exactly on my birthday!

Doumo arigatou Lady~chan, you made me really happy! mmwah=*

Written by one of my fav writers, Nikki Gonzales (cosmicegg.multiply.com) whose writings i've always been a fan of.  Those hours of chatting and exchanging ideas finally pays off ^_^ i tried my best to make the music as profound as the words... err you be the judge nalang.

Music box, Double Bass (bow), Ac Bass (pluck), drums, and some clock sounds ^_^

Lilly Abigail's comeback song, after disappearing for so long ^_^ i missed her. i love you Abii^_^

enjoy!



Hush, Little Pulse
lyrics by Nikki Gonzales
music by ioHann
vocals by Lilly Abigail

I hear the song of metal red blood
the pounding of your veins
the wind, life, breathing in your skin

Beep beep beep
goes the machine

threatening
every second
that it will

STOP

thump thump thump
goes the pulse in your skin
softly beckoning
barely there
proving you're still

HERE

thudthudthudthudthud
goes your heart

beating
fast
racing no one but

TIME

I hear the scream of a world, spinning
the cries of eternity, deaf, unknown
the heart, life, does it function

beyond a muscle pumping miracle
any more?
 

I found this song from my 2006 album  (Deviant Symphony) that i havn't listened to for a long time ^_^

it seems fit for the summer, so here's another summer tribute!!!

dedicated to Kitty.

i miss doin reggae ^_^

CRAZY  GIRL
by ioHann

1
the first time that i saw you
when dem skies were blue
i knew
in this world
you were not ordinary girl
you were so pretty and witty
no wonder i want you with me
even though im fat
and you're skinny (oh yeh)

i got to know you after awhile
then i found myself lookin for your smile
even though sometimes
i dont get your lines
but i find myself every single
wanting to be with you

CHORUS:
Is it your hair?
Is it your eyes?
Is it your beauty
that tells me lies?
is it your face?
Is it your style?
Is it your body
That makes me smile?
I don't know why
You're always in my mind
But there's one thing I know for sure
That you're a
Crazy crazy crazy
crazy Crazy girl
 
2
every single day
you just cant seem to decide
from your wide fashion collection that can make you glide
still you abide
on that condition
when you still cant decide
on your hair
and you're perfume's everywhere

i really dont mind
you're a vegetarian
even at night you do meditation
but i like it everytime you think you're a kitten
and still
all i think about is you


BRIDGE:
even if i cant be as crazy
as you can be
i still cant get enough
of the crazy girl i see
oh baby


coda:
I don't know why
You're always in my mind
i know you're not the
predictable kind
there some answers i just cant find
But there's one thing I know for sure
That you're a
Crazy crazy crazy
Crazy crazy crazy
Crazy girl

So how did you become such an expert in all genres of music?



: I'm not an expert.




: ok.. so "knowledgable" and "passionate" in all kinds of music? you never settle in one  genre all these past years, and you try to pull off something from all kinds of music genres. what made you like that?

: you see, if you cross a music lover (of all genres) and a socially insecure bastard, you get a Music Chameleon. at least thats how i could best call it.



: Music Chameleon? someone who can blend in any type of music?



: with a motive that is. some loser who would exploit other people's (especially girls') love/passion for a certain kind of music genre, or even a specific band or artist just to get attention, respect, or recognition. in short, just to get closer to her.
it's pathetic, really.

: exploit meaning... he pretends to be into the same things so she would notice him?



: oh not just pretend, he'd seriously get into it just for her.
he exposes and researches so much on whatever genre/band the girl is into, even to the point of surpassing her own knowledge of it.


: and it works?



: oh it does, believe me. but only to a certain extent.




: sounds pretty desperate. like something a total geek would do.



: what happens is, he gets too much into this genre that it grows into him and
eventually influences him in many ways.. even in his own music and style.



: so you're saying this person is a musician.



: yes. he must be. how more can he impress the girl when he sits by her and plays her favorite song in the piano or guitar? better yet, even sing it.



: girls can be a sucker for that, huh.



: oh not quite. you see these girls with extreme fanaticism and passion for a certain
singer, band or music artist are one of the hardest to impress.  if she sees that  you like what she likes, youre a buddy. but you'll never BE the ones she likes coz nothing compares to her object / person of obsession. she would just see you as a co-fanatic, and the sad part is that youre really just a poser.

: ouch.



: and later on... after accepting the fact that he hasnt got a chance in a million years to get the girl to like him, he ends up with nothing else but the music. there's no turning back. the music meshed into his blood and he can't get rid of it. its gonna be there till he dies.

: then what?



: then he moves on to the next girl of another music genre to blend with or suck up to. and the cycle goes on.  in the end, you get a well exposed and experienced music afficionado of different genres, who's also a depressed, insecure, and  hopeless member of society.

: so you like talking about yourself, don't you?



: no, i like making music.




: to impress girls.



: no, to keep me sane and away from suicide.




: yeah, whatever.

This song was written by my sister, Jai.  it's her story, but actually its also mine in many ways ^_^ this is how we express the way we know best... through music. through a song.

Worked on this for a whole day, my fingers are so sore from all the guitar layers, it hurts to type.

...to everyone on the other end of this song.

Two Worlds Away
Lyrics by Jael Garcia
music and vocals by ioHann
 
The sun is gone today
I’m sure it’s etched on your face for all to see
So full of pain, so full of hurt
From me
Its driving insane
By the thought of you sitting there
Clawing at your hair, wide-eyed and so full of despair

And I’m sorry
I know you don’t wanna hear it again
But I’m sorry
And there’s no way that time could bend

(chorus)
Not that I want to fly away
But I just can’t stay
Coz my heart had come back to me
Now you’re left with no words to say
We’re two worlds away
And to you I have nothing more
So I’ll walk out the door
With goodbye

Funny how things always end
The last way you expected them to
But believe me I tried constantly
i wish you were always everything to me
And I’m so full of love that I can’t give
Or I just don’t know how, with you

And I bet you wish you were never born
Coz I can’t love you
The way you love me
And I can’t be yours
And we just cant be

(chorus)

(bridge)
And from the bottom of my heart I know it’s true
But nothing could stop me
From falling away from you
But I had to do what I had to do
‘Cause I wanted you to know what’s true
And I am falling into this
dragged into a deep abyss
And now I’m all alone
no other heart to call my own
coz I’m in a place right now
Where I’m free from you
I never wanted you to hurt
Never wanted you to wound
But your world would have never changed
Unless I crashed it into the sea
Two worlds we want will never ever meet
Sea and sky
I’ve walked out the door for you
With goodbye

dig this. i got an email from YOUTUBE that the CHET BAKER FOUNDATION requested that my "My Funny Valentine" Emo rendition to be put down coz of copyright infringement. even if the write ups and the video itself had the attribution to Chet Baker, and its clearly non-profit, just like the millions of "here's my take on (insert song title here)" posts in youtube. but still YouTube's legal rules states that even people singing "cover" songs and the likes, or even using part of it is already illegal. yeah i read the legal shit. in short, ANY kind of cover songs people upload in YouTube is already illegal and enough for them to take it down, along with tv clips, music videos, movie clips, commercials... holy shit in short, maybe 80% of the whole YouTube ^_^ even Marie Digby (famous for the "Umbrella" cover)  or Josiah Lemming's cover songs that made them famous in youtube to begin with, or even clips of Charice Pempengco viewed by millions.  of course YouTube is obviously understaffed for such an insane job of screening the millions of videos, so they rely on a "recommendation" system, or flag system, mostly coming from users. if a user requests a certain post i think is 'illegal' then thats what YouTube will prioritize to ban. in my case, as you can see ^_^ my Emo version of "My Funny Valentine" pissed off the Chet Baker Foundation! wow, my remake became that famous to even reach them!  oh and to begin with, Chet Baker didnt even compose that song, coz it was originally from the 1937 Richard Rodgers and Lorenz Hart musical Babes in Arms. Chet Baker just sung it along with hundreds of other artists, but hey i wont attest to the Chet Baker Foundation ^_^ they were just obviously pissed at my version to begin with, coz nobody else in the world or in history has probably ever attempted an EMO version of that standard jazz tune. and to prove it, go search "My Funny Valentine" in youtube and see the dozens of amateur musicians doing their "cover" of that song -- nobody ever even got close to my arrangement coz they were all just copying the original, and the mere fact that their videos are still there.. the Chet Baker Foundation didnt flag them ^_^ like my version of turning it into ROCK was a great blasphemy to the great Chet Baker. don't get me wrong, I love Chet Baker!

Now lets see if the GooGoo Dolls Foundation, Bonnie Tyler Foundation, Bonethugs~n~Harmony Foundation, Tears for Fears Foundation, U2 Foindation, and the rest of the other Musical-Artist-Foundations go flag YouTube of their respective songs that i remade, and get me banned once and for all ^_^

Here's my Emo version of "My Funny Valentine", and i dedicate it to the Chet Baker Foundation ^_^

This song was written and composed by Paul Tolentino (a.k.a. Spree) paulustheonly.multiply.com , as he originally posted in his page HERE


i arranged the music for him and we recorded the arranged version part of our recording marathon last Apr 12-13. i also did the backup vocals (hehe)


enjoy!








closer
original words and music: spree
arrangement and backup vocals: ioHann

what up? let me just say this, i don't believe in accidents
this thing with you and me, girl, this is no coincidence
even though it seems like we're living under different times
do you have a minute? won't you listen to these honest rhymes
yeah, it's kind of a long shot
maybe i'm even out of place but
i just gotta say it right now
but i just don't know exactly how

some people tell me, "boy you're gonna have to wait so long"
but i really don't care as long as it's you, baby, i'll stay strong
can you promise me, you'd do the same for me
'cause if you're playin', then it's best you leave
i'm not here to play the game
tell me that you feel the same

how do i tell you that i care for you?
girl don't you know that i'm so into you?
when i'm with you, you make me better
i wanna know you more, i wanna get closer
tell me how do i tell you that i love you?

i know right now you're not ready for a relationship
but, girl, i'm in no rush, so hush.. for you imma wait
for the moment.. we gotta focus on our priorities
you've got school and i've got work 45 hours a week
and when i see you on the weekends
i wanna get stuck in the moment
i can come up with so many reasons
'cause to me these few hours are golden

some fellas trippin' bout us sayin' we can't be together
'cause time and space keeps us apart
i just tell them, 'whatever'
everything will fall into place one day
and that's the day i'm gonna sing
it's you i wanna spend forever with


I also made a short remix just for fun.. hehe. kudos to Paul for a great song ^_^


This embedded player plays the remix, scroll up play the other one for the original.

haha part of the ioHann Jai & Spree Recording marathon last April 12-13. this was done just after midnight i think. the original is just piano and strings, in our version i included some Pizzicato strings, an oldskool organ, and drums ^_^




9 Crimes
original song by Damien Rice
musical arrangement by ioHann
vocals by Jai Garcia and Paul Tolentino

...night before the BELOVED rerun, me, Jai, and Paul just finished recording our cover of "9 crimes", i arranged this version of Whigfield's "Close to You" till about 5am. then woke them up straight to recording till the sun came out.  Here's what came out of it ^_^






Close to You (bedroom version)
original song by Whigfield
musical arrangement and backup vocals by ioHann
main vocals by Jai Garcia and Paul Tolentino

Turn-ons I like about girls that they probably wouldn't expect.

1. Girls with paint or ink stains in their hands and fingers.

how often do you see those? not very often. true artists would put aside pretty nail jobs, soft and smooth hands  and clean fingernails for their real passion. paint stains = artist.

but of course it could have just come from some class project, or what if she's a house painter?

hmm..

although it may not necessarily be the same with writers (ink stains=writer) i have met amazing writers who really spend time doin it oldskool with manual scribbling and playing around with their pen when thinking, inevitably staining their hands in the process.

bottomline is -- im really into artists and writers, and i tend to notice little things that reflect the artist/writer in them.


2. Girls who can look hot wearing massive pants.

massive (a.k.a. "elephant" pants as so locally called in the early 2000's) pants, those American Blvd oldskool JNCO brand jeans or slacks that make your shoes disappear and literally sweep / mop the floor.
 
but before i continue... FYI for those who went thru the fashion stage of wearing pants like these, did you know there were unwritten rules  and impressions on wearing such things?
   
1) Massive pants should never be called "Elephant", the term itself degrades you to
jologness already if you use it.
   
2) Massive pants crotch length (ok i dunno what to call this) differs with guys and girls
wearing them. guys have the lower ones, girls who attempt to wear the "low ryder / uber low
waist" massives are dykes. on the other hand guys who wear massive pants like bellbottoms of the 70's, with the crotch part literally touching their balls then thats just gay. (i have seen such cases of this, given that they were the ones who had their massive pants tailored from scratch. apparently the tailors dont know the rules XD)

3) Massive pants are MEANT to touch the floor. NEVER tuck it in your shoes, that is like
JOLOGS to the nth power if you tuck it in. reason: good massive pants arent really cheap, and fashion desperados back then who wanted to be IN and spent their whole savings to buy a pair wouldnt have the heart to get it cut or tailored, or even gut its laylayan dirty/torn/ruined by touching the ground, so they do the next best (jologest) thing -- tuck it in their shoes. on the other hand, the more rugged / worn / torn your trouser-ends are, the cooler. it reflects the
whole artist expressionist thing, the whole deviant post-modern deconstructionalist stuff ^_^

4) When girls wear massive pants, they should never wear loose tops. it reverses the whole hotness to a negative degree and welcomes you to the category of oldskool Tibo fashion.

...so nowadays its rare itself to find a girl wearing these kinds of pants, since it probably was never really an IN thing in their fashion trends, but once in a blue moon i find the few courageous ones who really "know how to carry it". given the "rules" above and its complexity, you see why its such a turn on for me to see a girl who can look HOT in massive pants. at the same time, one who does clearly has her own "artistic" deviance-in-society to even wear such things risking to look 'boyish' or some tomboy with a spray can.

ooh spray can. thats hot XD



3. A Girl who is a closet gamer.

gamers meaning role playing games, first person shooters, realtime strategy, MMORPGs, PC, PS2, XBOX, PSP, but NOT Nintendo DS players. NDS isreally made for girls. real gamer girls are rare in itself, but when i said "closet", theyre the type who arent all out geeky on their gaming. the all out hardcore girl gamers are usually the geeky Otaku type or the borderline lesbo who hangs out with boys, not to mention looks and acts like a boy already. the closet gamer wouldnt be broadcasting or admitting whe plays the real deal games until she finds someone who is also a gamer. i like them coz girls like them are always a pleasant surprise. gamers have their own language which isnt really that easy to learn or explain. it takes real experience and alot of time. for a girl to speak MMORPG language, type and understand "l33t" (ok sorry just google that term if u dont know it). a girl who can talk hours of Final Fantasy and people overhearing us would think were talking about soap operas or movies.  The girls who get thru all the technicalities of gaming are the ones who are able to really grasp the beauty of the story (such as Final Fantasy games), where its not all about levelling up, killing monsters, or "pwning noobs".

Gamer girl = HOT.

4. A Girl who loves Street Food

Even if her family dines in Italianni's regularly, and back in college she eats in places where a waiter delivers a chit to your table after you eat (away from the commoners who stands in line bussing their own trays, paying as they order), she still would pull me aside for some good old isaw, kewk-kwek, fish/squid/chx balls, and the likes, making me swear not to tell her mom coz she will freak out if she knew her daughter ate oldskool "unsanitary" street food. i dont mind if she calls the "quail eggs in vinegar", as long as she loves it.  thats hot ^_^

5. A Girl who can seriously rap.

Girls who sing is such a trivial turn-on. but girls who rap (and not look like a stereotype boycut lesbo lover), and still maintain her girliness in her non-rapping mode, thats something else. i dont care if she gets abit too gangzta when she gets into it, its even all more impressive ^_^ Rapper girl, who can sound legit. that's hot ^_^

6. A semi-otaku girl.
Otaku's are the fanatics / officionados of Japanese manga, anime, and mostly anything related to that. about 90% of all the hardcore otaku girls i know kinda fit the description of the stereotypical mmorpg gamer girl -- boyish, kinda geeky, and hangs out with gamer / otaku boys. but thats like really hardcore, like they know too much useless details and trivia already. The kawaii-wannabe otaku girls are not that hardcore or geeky, but their purpose in life is to be one of those uber-kawaii anime girls, thus the cosplay -- theyre the types who dress like jap schoolgirls and wear those high loose socks in public. i like those types coz in a way their fanaticism/passion rules over whatever the public may think of them, which is in parallel to a true artist's characteristic. thing is, they are also the types who are totally obsessed with bishounens (young jap celebrity boys, boybands, actors) whether real or animated. thats pretty hard to top off. bishounen fanatics are a different breed, one you wont wanna cross. 
having said the ups and downs of the jap cultured fanatics, i'd prefer a balance -- thats why semi-otaku.  a girl who knows enough anime, jdrama, jmovies, jmusic, manga, has seen some and can make an interesting conversation on them, not they type who would have bishounen pics all over all of her web profiles, pages, and blogs  a girl who drops occassional kawaii expressions that otakus relate with, but not totally mimic some anime character all the time.
a girl who can pull off the legit jap idol peace sign in her photos, that real hot.

6-b. A girl who speaks Japanese.
'nuff said ^_^

this is a remake of my original "Audrina" from my Project Loli album (2007) the original is electronica / chillout, its still embedded in my MUSIC section under Project Loli.

one of my more poetic songs (which is super rare) originally written for someone, but apparently she never appreciated it.

so f*ck it, she wased my good lyrics ^_^ so i rearranged it so i can un-dedicate it from her hahaha XDXD so here's to the world!

11 straight hours from music arranging to final vocal recording. thats pretty long... it took alot of time coz i included a whole orchestra. Cello solo, brass, strings ensemble, piano.. along with the contemporary distortion guitars, i also put a little banduria-like tremolo strings (hahaha) along with the Cello in the adlib part.  i got tap-happy with the lead guitar, sorry.

anyway, enjoy!








Audrina
by ioHann

your eyes are like a photograph of the sky at sunset
your lips are like lavanders in the morning dew
and your smile can disarm any warriors armor
even slow down time
and your face is the reason why
i deam at night and never wanna wake

let your hands be mine
feel my blood like wine    
let your spirit linger
make me shiver
to the tip of my finger

intoxicate me
animate me
and impale my heart with your extacy
intoxicate me
captivate me
and impale my soul
and the rest of me

isn't it funny how i know
that im looking for someone
who's exactly like you
who talks, writes, thinks, like you
feels, expresses, and moves like you do
someone who has your mind,
your ideas, philosophies, one of a kind
someone who has a soul like you
and i remember you saying
a similar thing to me too

isnt it funny how i push them all too far
coz they could never get close to what you are
or how you told me about your last guy
that he could never get it, or wouldn't even try
that he couldnt fathom your artistic life
then you say you'll never be anyone's wife

you see colors that are yet to be named
you listen to music that cannot be claimed
you fit a thousand words in a few little phrases
you unfold such truth with half-full glasses
you could tell a story with the shapes in the sky
you're look is priceless when you try not to cry
you can tell what a person craves for
you just know when a touch tells more

and on things like that,
i totally get you
nothing in the world can deny
how you can be so true

yesterday, after saying goodbye
i never really come to realize
you're...  perfect.
and thats exactly the reason why
we got along all for these years

yet falling for each other...
just never hit us.
not once
not ever.

Love has such a fucked up sense of humor.

Totally trippin'. Totally SKA. Total Eclipse of the Heart. no idea why ^_^


i wanted to make a ska track, but i didnt have ideas or inspiration for lyrics... so i decided to make another cover rendition.


it's summer, it's time for HAPPY music! woot!!
i love making happy arrangements for sad songs :P or vice versa.


see if it works.


...oh and i really planned for a girl to sing this. i have a vocalist in mind already (hi Bang ^_^), i think she can pull it off ^_^

watch out for that version ^_^










TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART
original by Bonnie Tyler

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never comin round
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart


Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

this song was written by my friend AJ Tapia (anjelo11.multiply.com) and his former student Bae Jae Hun. AJ asked me to arrange their song last year, but i was too busy with stuff. anyway i owe him, so here it is ^_^

yes, i know it sounds like a perfect boyband song ^_^ honestly its supposed to be DBSK/TVSQ or Shinhwa inspired (if you dont know who they are, they're Korean boybands) since the whole POP scene is still very much IN in their country.. and i tried to maintain the original melody AJ sent me.

to the other friends who sent me lyrics asking me to make into a song, eventually i will have time for that ^_^ but the significance of friendship has nothing to do with the length it takes for me to make your song, or if i do make it in the first place XD

...but of course there could be certain catalysts that could inspire / motivate me to make your song a really fast and really good -- like this thing called a New York's Finest 18inch Yellow Cab... (like my good friend Pam Sison before XD i love you pam!)

anyway, kudos to AJ and Jae Hun! hope you like it!